“Behold, I am the handmaid of the Lord. May it be done to me according to your word.” Luke 1:38
I was recently texting with a family friend and she asked me to find the verse “For with God, nothing shall be impossible” in my bible and send her a picture of the exact words and its location. I pulled out my bible and did just that.
It should be of no surprise to anyone that this verse is found directly in Luke chapter 1, where the Angel Gabriel announced to Mary that she would conceive a son and her relative Elisabeth had also conceived a son in her old age. In Mary’s confusion, the angel’s response to her is that “the Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you.” The angel leaves Mary with the words “For with God, nothing shall be impossible.” Mary’s response to the angel’s announcement is so beautiful, “Behold, I am the handmaid of the Lord. May it be done to me according to your word.” Then the angel departed from her.
After texting with my friend, I realized that her request of me was no coincidence. In where I am at right now in my life, I anxiously await to find out that we too may be expecting a child. I suppose in a way we are. We just recently submitted our home study paperwork. The home study paperwork consists of a large packet of questions relating to our family, health, finances, relationships, and even life style choices, something that took us about a month to complete. We now wait for our paperwork to be reviewed before moving on to the next step. Talk about expecting! So much of this journey is completely out of our control. We just anxiously wait to find out where our journey is leading next.
One of the hardest parts of our journey, besides the lack of control, is the wait. When your heart yearns so deeply for a child, the wait of only a few days can feel like an eternity, now imagine the wait of months or even years. I am lucky because our adoption journey has gone rather quickly. We are moving through it at a much quicker pace than I would have ever envisioned.
I can only imagine the questions running through Mary’s mind after her encounter with the Angel Gabriel. Was she fearful? Was she anxious? Was she nervous? Perhaps at ease? While I can’t speak of Mary’s inner thoughts, I know that I feel fearful, anxious, and nervous on a daily basis. However, in these fearful moments I know that God is near, walking us through this journey. How do I know this? Because he brings people into our life, in our greatest moments of need. He knew that my fears needed to be put at ease the day my friend text me her request. He knew I needed to feel his loving presence.
So for the time being, we will continue to wait, learning from Mary’s beautiful response to the Angels request, “Behold, I am the handmaid of the Lord. May it be done to me according to His word.”